Savoring Monday

 I've removed nearly all "distractions" that took up time that I could have spent writing, but I'm still not writing. I have all of this "space" now after taking a huge step back from content creation. Its been about 3 weeks now that I've been off of short form platforms, both as a creator and a consumer. I do have to admit though, I downloaded Instagram 3 times in the span of the last 2 days to try to see how it'd feel after such a long break, and WOW. The interest is gone. Each time logging back on was the same experience. Overstimulating. My attention span has recalibrated and it's just too fast paced for me now.  Before I decided to delete the app the first time, I was already feeling overstimulated by short form content. I've heard people call it short form burnout. It's just too much at once and so easy to scroll through 15 different scenarios in the matter of 3 minutes. Now that I've actually taken a break from that kind of sti...

We recently went to a park during sunset and it was one of those breathtaking ones. You could see the rays of sunshine behind the clouds and tree silhouettes, which to me indicated the sunset was going to be a good one. It sure was! The sky was painted with orange, and even pink at one point, but for the most part it had this deep amber glow.  Some of my favorite things to notice in nature lately: the way the orange hues highlight edges of the trees during sunrise or sunset.  the glittery sparkles that are created when the sun kisses the water with its reflection. the details of trees.

I don't know why I'm finding writing so hard lately, when I know that it is the form of expression I feel most close to. Or maybe that is changing too? The last year or two has been a whirlwind of shedding old versions of me. And with that comes changes in my creative expression. I am finding that the way we create is often tied to what we find identity in. And when that completely falls away, or changes, or no longer fits, sometimes it feels like youre standing in an empty room, with so much possibility, you just don't know where to begin, and that becomes your stumbling block. So this is me beginning, even when it feels like I don't have it all figured out. Maybe I should give myself more credit, because logically, it does make sense. In tenth grade I got my first (and only) dslr camera. (now the iphone is fancy enough to be a camera) This was around the time Instagram was taking off in the photography community. I quickly fell in love with artsy photos, setting a sce...